My Best Twin Sister

On Sunday afternoon, I left my TWIN SISTER and BESTESSST FRIEND in Churchville, New York and I drove 8 hours home to GC, IN [read more about NY trip HERE.]  One of THE HARDEST things I have ever done.  She makes me brave. She encourages and supports me. When I'm crying, she stops the tears.  She keeps me organized and focused.  She pushes me when she knows I am capable, and she steps in to assist when she knows I'm not.  I would have never "gotten back on the horse" if it weren't for her, and without her, I would have probably failed pre-calculus.  She practically got me 2 of my 3 present jobs and she picked out my wedding dress (that's how much I love her!)  She's not quite as touchy-feely as I am, but I know she loves me dearly.

How am I going to live without her?

Yes, I suppose there's Skype... and texting... and even snail mail (I LOVE SNAIL MAIL!), but we know that doesn't replace even compare to experiencing life together.  And really, I know she doesn't want to receive a text every time something "text-worthy" happens in my life.

I'm already planning to visit her in the next few weeks, once Titus has arrived from Cambodia.  [I'm thinking my sister would like to meet my fiancé before he becomes my husband.]  She will be home for my wedding in October.  She will finish grad school next May, and then she will move home for a few months.


But things will never be the same.

I'll be married.  My husband won't replace my best twin sister, but things will be different - an exciting different, but a hard to accept different... because I know she's next.  In the next one to two years, she will be the new wife.

Without the example of my little sister, I would not be the woman I am today and I know THAT won't change.  She makes me want to be a better sister, daughter, granddaughter, aunt, friend, girlfriend, student, worker, etc., and she shows me how to be. I'm proud of her - proud of what she has accomplished, proud of what she is striving for, and proud of who she is becoming.  She will be an awesome social worker, wife, mother, and neighbor.

I know it.

As I write this, I'm hiding my tears behind my computer.  "You're crying and smiling." - that's what my gravedigger friends would say [again.]

That's the kind of best twin sister I have.

I love you Jessie!

Love love love, Jewel